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Pure Love

Is the title of my website and the essence of life. Pure love is mostly a very abstract concept.

Why did i choose purelove as my “domain”? Simply said, because it is what i want to experience, feel, live and embody more in my life. It is also my mission here on earth. And what it looks like for me is something that stays very abstract and very personal. It doesn’t fit in a fixed model. That is also true for you. Pure love is in you, in your own core. It is entangled in our lifespath. And that is unique for everyone, eventhough it is anchored in pure love.

When i grew up in my early childhood, i didn’t really experience a lot of love on a daily basis. To be honest, i didn’t know the feeling of love at all conciously. As a 5 or 6 year old little girl i walked to my primary school nearby. The school was located almost in the same street as i lived and i could just walk there following the sidewalk. On an ordinary day i walked the same route to school, when in a daydream a question raised: “how would pure love feel?” Immediately i felt overwhelmed by a warm, tingling feeling that started at the bottom of my feet and moved slowly up filling my whole body with a feeling i’d never felt before. I stood there quietly, fully aware of how this feeling filled my body all the way up towards my head. I felt intens happiness and delighted and after a couple of seconds where i felt every cell in my whole body filling with this feeling, i wondered what i’d done to experience this special feeling. I remembered how i thought about how love would feel and that for a split second i was open to recieve. I asked myself how it worked, while slowly this fulfilling feeling flowed away from my body. I wanted to hold on to this feeling, but i didn’t know how. I could only “look at” how this amazing feeling, gradually found it’s way back down into the earth. The pureness, the warmth and aliveness, the replenishing feeling that surprised me, was indescribable and unrelatable to a feeling that i have ever known in my life. Meanwhile i continued analysing the situatie, to find out what brought this feeling forward. I have to remember this moment, i said to myself and walked towards school. I decided, when i grow up, i would explore how to feel pure love again. It remained a once in a lifetime experience.

On and off this memory popped up in my life. I also experienced other very special moments during my younger years and when i was a bit older, once in a while these mystical parts of life too splashed up as sweet memories. I didn’t know about anyone in my environment who told me about similar experiences or could provide guidance. Because of that, i felt a bit alone or misunderstood sometimes. When i reached the age of adulthood, i started searching for explanations about these special experiences. Feeling that one moment of love again was more or less a big reason behind my interest, eventhough it felt more on the background sometimes. In my 20’s i read a lot of books that could inspire me in my personal development, where i focused on supporting my mental-, emotional-, physical- and spiritual growth. I followed a lot of different coachings- and development courses to learn more about life and myself. I sang along to so many songs about love from the depths of my heart, where i dreamed of a beautiful life, full of love. That feeling that rushed through my body while i sang a long, mostly felt as love mixed up with melancholy. And of course, love was somewhere invisibly connected in all of my life’s experiences, only i didn’t always feel it, and especially not in the same way as that one unforgetable moment.

At a certain point in time there was a turningpoint, i met more and more people who represented acting out of pure love. I recognized it as the pure love that i was so deeply searching for. Because they lived by the example of love, i found great inspiration and love in them. I wanted to set up a website for a very long time. I knew that the title would have something to do with love; some Dutch variants of infinite love, natural love, endless love, unconditional love, didn’t really feel like that one moment of deep pure love. A definitive domainname that really felt fulfilling didn’t come to mind nor making the website really happen due to lack of knowledge and other factors, prevented me from creating it. But since i felt so much more at ease and created a comfort zone by being in touch with them, things felt more possible.

When i was around the age of 32 i participated in a physical workshop called “Meeting the mystery of money”. The setting with all of us felt so pure and warm. Before long, i felt at ease with everyone being present. I knew some of the people, i met others for the first time. At one point in the workshop we recieved an empty namecard. The instruction was to write a name with the highest and purest intension that you felt you are. This would be your name for the whole weekend. I felt i had to write down “pure love”, but i didn’t dare. Instead i wrote “Loving source of Pureness”.

Around this periode i also took part in an online course. It focused on finding your life’s purpose and i used it as an opportunity to reform parts of my life. During this course i remembered that one moment where my body got filled with pure love. This was the answer to my question: “what is my life’s purpose on earth”. Still i didn’t know how i had to do that or what i needed to do to feel that again. I couldn’t really understand how feeling pure love would fit the framework of my life’s purpose. I decided to acknowledge this information and just enjoy this wonderful feeling of clarity that i got, and see it as a direction for myself.

In 2021 a friend of mine pointed out the rebootgroup of Jacqueline. Althought i felt at first a bit hesitant, i started to join the rebootgroup and other events invariably. I soon recognized the deeper layers of life that i already knew myself, reflected in her. These events have played a huge role in experiencing more love in my life and letting love flow through my body. I felt invited by her, to show myself more and go into the world, as i am, to follow my life’s path, and doing what i’m meant to be doing here. No, i ain’t magically perfect. I don’t have all the answers for you. I am no better than you. I don’t do everything always right either. But i am a human being, i do as best as i can and to stay in the expression of Jacqueline, i purify in every moment of the day. And for me that is more than enough right now. It is right there, where i finally found what i have been searching for, for so long.

 

The pure love in myself.

 

Much love Marloes